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Can energy be sensed as a bodily sensation?


Can energy be sensed as a bodily sensation?

After a peculiar meditation last night, I am coming to think so. Or at least some form of energy. The experience last night was... not like anything I've experienced before. As I entered the 2nd half hour of my sit, I felt a heaviness in my forehead, just above and between my eyes. I leaned my observation and awareness into this heaviness and entered a realm of consciousness I had never seen before.

Part of me feels worried to explain it — will people even believe me? Am I sounding like a hippie charlatan? I do not have anything to sell, nothing to gain from sharing. But at the very least, I can state confidently it was my experience — and I want to capture it before my memory fades and my mind convinces me that I was delusional.

I am honestly at a loss for words on how to explain it. It felt as though all my physical reality and environment faded away. And then there were long moments where I felt a directional flow of “energy”, something similar to an electrical current, buzzing throughout my body. From core to limbs and back, I felt sensations running through me. It felt otherworldly, sublime. Not like a chocolate bar or an orgasm sublime, but sublime like... being a sun.

Before I entered that night's meditation, I was exhausted. I had overworked myself — mostly out of excitement, since this new daily meditation practice has offered me an energy I have never felt before. Here by energy, I mean an awakeness, alertness, ability to go throughout my day without needing a nap — and yet waking up between 4:30 and 6:30 and going to bed between 11 and midnight.

I cannot remember the last time I've had such energy... and it's certainly possible that my body will crash if I continue waking up so early. But I have not been waking up early from an alarm clock or from fear — no, I have been waking up from excitement to meditate. If you told me a year ago that I would be excited to wake up and meditate and 5am, I would not have believed you! I would have laughed.

But that's the strange thing... I entered last night's meditation exhausted, ready for bed. My brain was wearied from a day of mental stimulation — a full day of coding work and music recording. I told myself I would only do 30 minutes since I was so exhausted. I would take it easy on myself. As soon as the timer ended, I set it again for another 30. It felt like I was just starting to get deeper into the meditation and I felt re-invigorated to reap the benefits from those depths.

It was in that 2nd half hour that this sort of energy coursing, the buzzing and vibrating enveloped my body. There was a threshold that was passed. Have others experienced such a state?

Ineffable, hard to grasp or capture. I hope to return to that state soon.


Jan 13, 2022

San Francisco, CA